Feb 18th – Day of Feeling Most Homesick

I still felt horribly down from Saturday and just wanted to be home. I wanted my family, I wanted my friends and I wanted my boyfriend. I felt hurt most I guess because I had hoped that people coming to study abroad wouldn’t be so mean and tactless…but I guess I should learn now that those people will be everywhere you go. Just in this instance, there aren’t as many I guess. Ugh. It didn’t help that all I wanted to do was to see and talk to my family and boyfriend on skype and today Skype was in a foul mood. It didn’t want to connect, didn’t like my webcam, or anything. I couldn’t make calls or receive them and I wouldn’t get to see people from home when I needed it most. I was so upset and poor James wanted to fix it but didn’t know how and mom and dad weren’t on that day (don’t worry, it’s okay…it was the day you had off, I wasn’t mad). I didn’t know what to do and the fact that I was homesick and upset made it worse. I grabbed my things and went outside to the gardens so no one would see me upset. I guess James knew that he needed to call to see what was the matter and why I wanted to go home so bad. Even talking to him on the phone I was still upset but at least it was nice to hear someone’s voice from home. I had to go to my film class so I needed to get off the phone…it was not a good day to be Addy. After class I went to my host home, had dinner, and went to sleep. I didn’t know what to do and I felt really alone.